My Healing Journey

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Being me

What fears have you overcome and how? I wouldn’t say that I have overcome this fear, but I am in the process of overcoming it. That’s the fear of being who I am. All my life, I wore a mask, and kept a facade. I was a good Christian girl who couldn’t possibly be gay.…

Kelly Dawn
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What fears have you overcome and how?

I wouldn’t say that I have overcome this fear, but I am in the process of overcoming it. That’s the fear of being who I am. All my life, I wore a mask, and kept a facade. I was a good Christian girl who couldn’t possibly be gay. God and the world would never accept it. But now I am learning to be who I am, regardless of what everyone else thinks. I am choosing to believe in a God who loves and accepts me, despite what many churches teach. I have even taken steps to writing a memoir about my life and this internal struggle I have wrestled with since I was at least 13 years old, maybe younger. My memories are a bit hazy. For sure I know that I have struggled with this since I was 13, in the early 1990s. But in writing this memoir, I will be writing my healing journey. That is how I will overcome this fear for once and for all.

Morgan

6 responses to “Being me”

  1. Carol anne Avatar
    Carol anne

    I’m really proud of you Morgan, doing this, it is going to be really beneficial to your healing. X

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    1. Bluedophins Avatar
      Bluedophins

      Thank you Carol Anne, I think so too.
      Morgan

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  2. cthulhusipher519 Avatar
    cthulhusipher519

    I keep wondering what Jesus would do to help you and we’re not Christian. Our stepmother doesn’t ever stop talking about Jesus, his love for people and his forgiveness and acceptance for people.

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    1. Bluedophins Avatar
      Bluedophins

      What do you mean? If I weren’t a Christian, how would Jesus help me? I know a lot of Christians say that you can’t be gay and Christian at the same time. I am finding that I don’t believe that. I am reading books, doing research, and beginning to challenge the beliefs I was brought up to believe. That’s why I am writing a memoir about it. Writing this story is my healing journey.

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        cthulhusipher519

        I’m sorry. I don’t know what I was thinking. The church I grew up in wasn’t against people being gay…but either way, I think the memoir is great and will be very helpful.

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      2. Bluedophins Avatar
        Bluedophins

        Thank you. I appreciate that. It is great that the church you grew up in wasn’t against people being gay. Many churches don’t believe the same way your church believes, especially back in the ’90s, when I was growing up.

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