Prison Walls

The prison walls I have built

protect my heart from breaking.

Nobody can see through my facade;

nobody can tell I am faking.

I have learned how not to need anyone,

I depend only on myself.

I have been betrayed too many times,

to keep everyone out, I am compelled.

My once-feeling heart has become cold,

I wear armor that is indestructible.

The messages that I don’t matter

have left my heart untouchable.

If I were to try to be real now,

I wouldn’t have a clue.

My facade has been believable even to myself,

I wouldn’t know how to be honest with you.

My life has been a lie,

masks to hide what is true.

I don’t know that I even know the truth,

Let alone you.

So many stories, so many lies.

Are any of them real?

I long to be authentic,

And show how I really feel,

But I can’t help but feel that it is a lost cause,

That I will forever be locked in my own prison.

Unable to find true peace and self-worth,

Sadly, this is my heart’s condition.

It will take someone who can see beyond my lies,

And confront me with what they see,

Although I will try hard to fight them,

That person might set me free.

Please set me free.