This affirmation really stuck out to me. Releasing the past is something scary to me. I tend to get stuck in the past and never see what has changed since then.

A lot of good things are happening in my life, but I am so stuck in the past that I can’t see it or acknowledge it.

My whole adult life has been me stuck in the pain of the past and still holding the destructive beliefs that I have learned from my childhood and into my adulthood.

I fear letting go of those beliefs so much that it is affecting my healing. When I think about letting go of those beliefs, I literally panic. They have so much power over my life.

In order to truly heal, I have to be willing to let go of past beliefs and learn to challenge them and change them.

For me, a lot of it is past spiritual beliefs. I have been so terrified of letting the “rules” of religion rule my life, causing me to live in a state of fear, guilt, shame, insecurity, and self-hatred for who I am.

Some of my past beliefs are beliefs I have been told about myself or treated like by my family. Beliefs that I am hopeless, that I can’t live a normal life, that I am sick or mentally ill.

Mental illness is a part of my life, but that doesn’t mean I am hopeless or incapable of living a normal life. But I have held so tightly to those beliefs that it became a part of me. A part of my life, and the way I think.

Thoughts produce feelings that can sometimes lead to destruction, so I have learned over the years that to change my feelings, I need to change my thoughts. That comes from a type of therapy called diabolical behavior therapy (DBT).

I am just now in my life beginning to be willing to let those past beliefs go. I haven’t gotten all the way there yet, but I am beginning the process. It’s taking a lot of hard work and pushing through the fear to do this.

Like I said in my last post about fear, I can let that fear continue to rule my life, or I can use it to make better choices. That is what I am trying to do.

Kelly

I release the past and embrace positivity now.

From the I am app: https://iamaffirmations.app/download