I have the strength…

I often feel like I am so weak that I just can’t keep going, but within my weakness, I find inner strength that I never knew I had until I hit rock bottom.

Sometimes I bounce back and forth between rock bottom and hope. I, at times, bounce between them multiple times a day, but somehow I always end up climbing back up the rock and believing in hope.

It fluctuates all of the time, but I keep pulling myself back up again. This self-talk that I tell myself, if I choose the positive statement, that I have inner strength and resilience, because the source of my inner strength.

What I tell myself has the power to make or break me. It has the power to plummet me to the bottom, or to rise up to the top depending on which statement I choose.

I have been conditioned to tell myself negative things about me by what others have said to me my whole life. I let their voices and beliefs outweigh my own opinions and beliefs.

When I tell myself I am weak, worthless, or hopeless, I am just mimicking my abusers and letting them define me.

I can’t say I am always telling myself positive things, and challenging those beliefs, but I am slowly learning to.

As my therapist tells me,”it’s two steps forward, and one step backward,” but the key I am learning is no matter how often I take one step backwards, I need to pick myself back up again and take a step or two forward, and maybe just maybe, I will eventually get to where I want to be.

So, it is all in what I tell myself. Do I let others define me, or do I define myself? I am trying to do the latter because I know what I tell myself has power to change the way I feel where it is good or bad.

I found an idea on thinking more positively on my Gratitude app. What do you think? https://gratefulness.page.link/a7ew