Some of you that are subscribed to my blog already know this, but for everyone who doesn’t know, I am writing a memoir about growing up in the early ’90s, from a conservative Christian home, and being gay. I am writing about my struggles with my faith and believing that God accepts me for who I am.

But as I am writing my story, there were some traumatic events that I had during my childhood and young adulthood, and I can’t help to fear that my being gay was directly a result of that trauma. This is something I have been struggling with for the last few days, and the answer I find will determine if I even continue writing this memoir. My therapist says that’s what people used to say, or even way back, it was considered a mental illness.

I know deep down that I have known that I was gay since I was 11 years old, and most of the sexual trauma that I experienced happened when I was older than 11 years old. But this question is plaguing my mind, and I have been wrestling these thoughts constantly. Does trauma make someone gay? That is a question for anyone who reads this. I am nervous to be even putting this question out there, but I need other people’s thoughts about this.

Please comment and share with me your thoughts on this issue.

Thanks