In the depths of my heart,

 confusion falls like the rain.

This darkness tears my soul apart,

unsure if the sun will ever rise again.

A heavy fog leaves me lost and alone.

I feel distant even from my own mind.

My emotions can never be shown.

Oh, if I could just leave this life behind.

My mind becomes a runaway train

with no direction and no end.

I want some shelter from this endless rain;

a place where my heart can mend.

Unable to decipher the truth,

I sink further into the pit.

I have suffered like this since my youth.

Running all my life with nowhere to fit.

I desire a light to guide my way.

Freedom from the torment inside.

But I struggle to know the words I need to say.

It feels like the house of pain is where I will always reside.

Kelly