This is the day two writing challenge from the book “Throw up Your Emotions on Paper: a 21-Day challenge.”

Day Two:

How are you feeling right now? What do you think about those feelings?

When I sit here and try to figure out what I am feeling right now, my mind is empty, like a well run dry or a burned-out candle. My thoughts are like an empty piggy bank, void of noise. I want to feel something, but my mind is frozen as ice. I am neither sad nor angry, happy nor excited, but I am a little puzzled by how to describe this state of mind. I tend to think of describing it as a numb state. My heart feels empty in life. I just finished some work on the devotional, and I’m feeling mentally and emotionally drained. I guess I am feeling a bit frustrated about how much I can get done in a day. My brain drains of energy so quickly, leaving me void of any emotion. I dread this evening when the tides of sadness ripple like the stillness of air that suddenly has a breeze. Only this breeze is not refreshing; it’s cold and overwhelming. The sadness escalates, sucking the air out of my lungs and the breeze swirls around my mind, tangling me in a spider web. When I think about what is coming, my heart sinks as if I am drowning. I try to stay in the present moment, cherishing the quiet and enjoying the peace that I rarely have. I cling to the hope that this evening will be different, but I know all too well that hope will die. Those are the thoughts swirling around in my head about how I am feeling right now, numb with a flicker of despair.