This positive statement, “It sucks, so I am going to be extra kind to myself,” rather than the negative statement, “This is such a bad day,” is something I definitely need to learn.

My self-talk is mostly negative. I tell myself, “Everything is going wrong,” or, “I’m never going to get this right.” Even my worst enemy doesn’t beat me down as much as I do to myself. Why is that?

Perfectionism, low self-esteem, rejection, and past mistakes are all the reasons why I have become my own worst enemy.

I could go into all the things that made those things be the reason, but it would be a book if I did. I will just say that I have had a hard life.

All the messages I got from abusers has become the very messages I tell myself, and more. It’s like a CD with my bank that I put a certain amount of money in, and if I don’t spend any of it, it earns money, and you end up with more money.

The messages I received in my past is that CD. The more I tell myself those things, the more new negative messages I add to them. That makes me a far greater enemy than the people who gave me those messages in the first place.

I have an affirmation app that you put how many times a day it sends a notification with a different positive affirmation. I have it set to eight times. Why do I need it so many times? The reason is simple.

Eight positive affirmations is nothing compared to the hundred negative things I tell myself. I am attempting to change what I say to myself a little at a time.

Do you struggle with negative self-talk? If so, are you worth it to change that? If that answer is no, it is a lie. Each one of us has worth. You have worth. If you struggle with negative self-talk, I hope you will believe me when I say you are worth it to change the way you talk to yourself.

I found an idea on thinking more positively on my Gratitude app. What do you think? https://gratefulness.page.link/a7ew